Insect Repellent...

explain it all to me?

2006-12-17T11:05:00.000-08:00

okay, so at the chalet now, as predicted, there's nowhere to sleep.RAHH. oh well.

not really in the mood to blog, but there's really nothing else to do cos there's no where to sleep.

something happened in class today. like, something i never expected. i swear i never meant to give you attitude. and i've never been spoken to like that before. i know artistic people are tempremental and whatever, and his moodswings are already notorious. but i was seriously shocked. when i spoke to t.k bout it , he went" Woah YOU actually stood there and took that? you sure it was you?"

i don't know what to say, but was i overeacting???AM i overeacting??? i really feel like speaking to some of his ex-students, but i don't know them all THAT well.And some of the things he said about them was really whatever. i mean. i don't know about the attitude part, but whatever u say, they ARE good. i've seen them dance.given, you exceed them in your particular field, but that's why you were their teacher NO??Do you actually expect me to talk to you about stuff that's bothering me after the way you spoke to me?

he "drilled" them after i left. like. asked them what happened,why i wasn't all "smiley" anymore.sometimes people leave me speechless. if i smile while u yell at me like that, firstly i''d have to be a lunatic, secondly, wouldn't you yell more cos i was being "Defiant"????

am i going to take that? i don't even know how i'm going to face him in class now.it's officially the first time i'm not looking forward to class.

2006-12-05T18:21:00.000-08:00

Had a day out with jia today.Excessive laughter,oodles of fun and lots of shopping as is customary of an outing with her (:
At one point we wanted to eat skechers, but i mistakenly thought that it was next to adidas, so when we got there and only saw a terra cafe,we thought it had closed down, only to find it later when we were looking for the restrooms-.-
we literally shopped the whole of bugis,and then got my ears pierced.
then wini joined us,and we went back to bugis street,only to have it start raining heavily.
Due to the rain,not only were we stranded in bugis street for awhile, i also had to take the train! i am NEVER taking the train at that time again okay.NEVER. it's like crush central ):

And then i got to the studio late for class! when i got there it was 6.59, and i hadn't changed! and after that, i coudn't open the door to get into class.but alison helped me open the door.which i am prepetually stuck with. thanks ally! i swear i'll learn how to lock and unlock it! (:

So they'd already started warm-up when i entered.Know what? i think female teachers are generally more concerned about ppl than male teachers. or maybe it's really just that females are that way.or maybe it's personality or something. anyway, turns was fun, but i really really have to strengthen my core and do ankle work. cos i wanna get those turns DOWN.practicepracticepractice! (:

Passed daph her shirt after class. the funny thing was, i merely said like.5 words,and she just started laughing!oh well. maybe she's just generally a happy person, and happy people like to laugh.so yeah.
(:

i had a really nice surprise when i reached home. apparently someone dropped off a pint of a ben and jerry's and a bouquet of flowers. Just because i whined about missing the outing the other day! wahaha. i should whine more =D more ice-cream =D
okay. so timmy can be the biggest jerk sometimes, but he's also one of the sweetest persons i know.rahh.contridictary.but thanks timmy! and yes!i DO like that flavour very much! (:

oj. tingzhi's group, dance!stomp got into the top 32 for dancefloor cos 1 of the otr groups dropped out.haha coolness.that's 2 groups to root for now.hope they do well! (:

2006-11-26T07:02:00.000-08:00

I just read this in a mag..where the interviewed teacher was askedfor a juicy student story.
this was her ans:
"I had a business student who wanted to quit his course to pursue a career in the arts.I wanted to tell him to follow his heart but i had to convince him to be realistic.Ultimately the choice was his to make."

I'm not quite sure why..but when i read this, it reminded me of my own teachers..
The government is currently trying to promote the arts, or so we have been lead to believe.and yet, when a student wants to take this pursual of the arts to the next level,the vast majority of the academic educators in our system do not feel it is a "realistic" choice.Maybe this partially explains the mindset of singapore students.Afterall, at least in my book, teachers are people who we respect and look up to. if the teachers hold that point of view, wouldn't the student be influenced in the slightest?

How sad, with society's mindset fixed the way it is,how is singapore supposed to progress in the arts?

on the other hand, i suppose it's a form of good training.after all, you have to learn to take criticism and rejection in the dance world right? it's always about daring to be different,to take that step out of the box.to break to chain.

___________________________________

When the going starts to get rough
And you feel like you've had enough
Let the music take control of your soul
Take a chance and do what you feel
Your a force they cannot live without it
You gotta break the chain yeah yeah

There's a passion inside
An inner strength that drives
Can't nobody take that away from you
It's the greatest high
You set the floor on fire when you come alive

And we're dancin'
And it feels alright
I can't control my desire
And we're dancin'
And it feels alright
Yeah
And we're dancin'
And it feels alright
Can't hold me down
Gotta reach for the sky
And we're dancin'
And it feels alright

Some people don't know the love you possess
They pretend what they don't understand
It's natural
You're in a world of your own

There's a passion inside
An inner strength that drives
Can't nobody take that away from you
It's the greatest high
You set the floor on fire
When you come alive

Push it too the max
Feel the room fall at your feet
Don't you dare hold back
Cuz it feels so good
It feels alright

There's a passion inside
An inner strength that drives
Can't nobody take that away from you
It's the greatest high you set the floor on fire
When you come alive

AND WE'RE DANCING, AND IT FEELS ALRIGHT (:

2006-11-21T18:52:00.000-08:00

I have to stop being such an emo kid. i really do.
It's not like everything is really worth being that emotional about.
don't waste your time on someone who isn't going to waste their time on you.

it doesn't only apply bgr, it applies to everyone.friends or whatever.

i'm wondering if it would have been better if i had just come clean last night, but confrontation isn't always the way to solve issues.in fact, sometimes some issues aren't going to be resolved either way, so why go through all the hassle and get everyone even more agitated and upset.and god knows, i'm not going to become all emo in front of that girl.

i finally understand that you don't understand

2006-11-16T02:29:00.000-08:00

MY TEACHER SAID I'M FAT!!!RAHHHHH.

what do you want me to do??diet or something??i can't!!i get reallyyy moody when i'm food-deprived okay.so too badd.

*physically incapable of dieting*

2006-11-16T02:11:00.000-08:00

I've changed.
I think we all have.
After all, change in inevitable right?

It used to really upset me when i'd think about how far apart we've drifted,but maybe you just never treasured it as much as the rest of us did.did you?

no matter. it's over now.i'm not sure this gap's even mendable.

in any case,does it really matter?
not anymore.

oh a lighter note,i'm getting this really pretty ring!!yay!!

2006-11-07T06:16:00.000-08:00

Currently looking for pilates classes at cc's.but all i can seem to find are kick-boxing and hatha yoga courses.RAHH.

anyway.
went for dinner with mj on sat.

and here's mj looking uber happy cos she has food.

then afterward,we went to look for her yoga pants,and my sweatpants...
fruitful tripp..
got 2 pairs of new pants..yay..

2006-10-29T05:46:00.000-08:00

Unfortunately,blogger happily ate my entry yesterday.oh well.

The ankle seems kinds swollen,so it spent the majority of the day with it's new best friend,the cold compress.but it seems to be getting better=)
i just realised that i have to go to ladc by tuesday, because that's when the dance card thing expires.so i have to pay by then.oh well. maybe i'll drag cheer peeps with me.hehe

"Shall we indeed accept good from God and shall we not accept adversity?"-Job 2:10

Faith comes by hearing,and hearing by the word of God.
At some point in life,all of us will get discouraged by one thing or another.
Instead of embracing the negative,we should believe that God shall turn the situation/issue around for the better.
Everything is either God-sent,or Used by God.
For he who is in me is greater than he who is of the world.

~on the cross of calvary,you set this prisoner FREE~

inbetween

2006-10-28T08:28:00.000-07:00

Today was a good day...and a bad day.
okay.
good things first.
I finallyfinallyfinallyFINALLY took Dapheny's ballet class again.
WHOOOO!!!
not that marcus's class isn't fun la.it is.
but i super missed dapheny's class.=))
it's so funn.

okay. now for the bad part.
i couldn't meet matthew OR minjia today,both for different reasons.
both of whom i haven't met for a long time.

and

I HURT MY LEG.
and it's swollen.
argh.how irritating.
i can't point or rotate my ankle.
ally said ice it.cause it's probably a strained achiles tendon.
so ice(numb) it 3 days,then if it doesn't work,heat(relax) it.haha.contridicting right.
don't like this.i get paranoid when i get hurt.
at times like these,i don't like my stairs one bit.
maybe if i snap my fingers enough, they'll go *poof*

ehh. i really hope mr ferrer's back and there's class tomorrow. not least of all because i miss my girls.ehh.wonder if i'll actually take class though..he can be kinda particular on not dancing if your hurt in anyway..

okay.forget it. maybe i'll just sit in on class and learn the exercises.and like jiayi said.maybe can cue them if they forget haha.

and the silver lining:no boring formal dinners!!yay!!!i can say i should stay off the ankle.WAHAHAHA.make the best of everything=P

2006-10-26T19:40:00.000-07:00

Hahahahahahahaha.okay.Things and social situations really get very funny sometimes.So...according to the masses(read: a certain group of people)
It is absolutely essential for a person to have a steady.BGR's are the essence of life.haha.okay.
people.that is such a deluded point of view.you mean you wanna spend you're whole life fleeting from one relationship to another?

how old are we?
17.

how many years do we have left?
on average.alot.

so what's the rush?
unless you tell me you're one of those irritatingly dependent,excessively whiny people who cannot survive on their own.
if you're in one, and you're happy, very good for you.if you're not, and you meet someone you have that zing with.excellent for you.but if you're not, and the latter doesn't happen. then don't stress la.zzz
ladalada.so stop bugging me on the issue kay.was cute at first.getting excessive now.
and hey, i realised something.
people with guilty consciences tend to read more into things.statements,movements.intangible stuff.whatever.

and people don't usually accuse people of something unless they themselves are capable of that action.cos if they aren't, they usually don't even think anyone else if capable of that action.

wahaha.okie.too much decacent lifestyle.so my brain's not functioning properly now. but ballet in 30mins!!yay!!!

Why?

2006-10-24T08:13:00.000-07:00

Why do people always let you down?
Why do they have to be people whom you put your faith in?
Why do they have to be the ones you chose to trust?
maybe it's because people can't hurt you unless you choose to let them in.

Look not to man,but to God.

Thought invoking day today.i learnt some things..which i might have preferred to have been kept in the dark about...
ignorance is bliss?

but again,if you hadn't told me..would i have blamed you for excatly that?

I don't want to think about it..but if i don't,i know it's gonna bug me intangibly for a very long time.sometimes it's easier to write things out rather than verbalise them..

why would you do do something like that?was there really nothing else you felt could be done?
did you have to resort to hurting so many other people?

we all ask questions..but we don't always get answers..no matter how long we wait..
so i'll contend myself with just letting them hang.someplace farfar away.where it'd not going to be an issue..

Everything feels so distant.
shutout;somewhere i can't reach you

2006-10-22T05:53:00.000-07:00

Hey peeps!

Wow. i just realised some really egotistical/presuming people read my blog!
no dudes and dudettes.
i am not about to tell you who the mystery person is!
but it's a 99.9% the person is not
a)YOU
b)Someone you know

soooo...please stop asking me.=)
and pleasepleaseplease DO NOT FLOOD MY SMS.
IT DOES NOT WORK OKAY.
anyway if i wanted to tell you, chances are i would have already told you..

okay..so anyway..i my mum and me found a bidding thing!!!intro-ed by my aunt...
it's so much fun!!!
wahaha.
needless to say, we sometimes lose control a bitbit when confronted with so many pretty things!!
and so...the bidding began...

and i didn't really like this one..
but my mum did..so..

and a sweet pink watch!!which i'm claiming=)

okay..i'm going to try to get cloud on fft now..which may not be possible cos i think i missed him earlier=(

xxxxx

Jonathan Liew:hello.please stop being such an idiot.you are nothing,Nothing,NOTHING like him okay. So please stop flattering yourself.It's sickening,to watch an ego like yours further inflate itself.oh.and kindly LOSE MY NUMBER.cos i've already lost yours.

okie then.that's it. Cheerio ppl!!

2006-10-21T10:22:00.000-07:00

Relatively fun day today
first thing in the morning i got bored...
so i decided to try on stuff..resulting in...
tadah!!

yesyes.i know the lighting sucks.
but unfortunately,my I.T skills are in the minus range. as we all know.
it's a miracle we even have pictures=)

and then later on..after an awesome service..
we took "popo" out to dinner!!!
that's jiejie and popo

and she'll gonna come stay with us!!!
yay!!!

okies..so on the way home we got bored...

see??hehe...nah..just kidding..
but we did photowhore abit..

and i kinda like the effects of this one..

after that i got treated to ben and jerry's!!
which of course i was too busy eating to photograph la=)

and the time now is...1.50am...and i'm gong to sleep in hopes i'll wake up in time for my yummy mac breakfast!!wahaha!!=D

--i'm reallyreally happy cos the only one i'm in love with is my awesome wonderful heavenly father--=DDD

You're everything this world will never be
Lord i lift my eyes to you when my heart feels weary
You never let my feet falter on the long and narrow path
You're all that i depend on,all that i desire
Thank you Abba
you are truly everything this world will never be.

2006-10-19T23:31:00.000-07:00

Thursday/19/10

Went to vvc and met up with qing and fenn..
had fun...though it's really big..and we kept having to go back to the information counter to ask for directions-.-
until we got a map!!yay!!
we got hungrier and hungrier whilst looking for a decent place to eat..
in the end we ate at a place called white dog cafe..
average i guess..
deardear said the ambience reminded her of thai express=)

then qing had to go..and she koped our map la!!!
so we spent half the day going back to the info counter again-.-

we went to forever 21 and started talking bout the type of prom dresses they wanted to get..
and i found a cute tunic type of crop top!!

and a retro-style headband from m)phosis:

but the pic is really blur and i didn't have the patience to take another one..

Friday/20/10

I packed my room!!finally!!!or at least some portion of it..
and i found some stuff perfect for hip-hop!!

now all i have to do is actually do hip-hop!
hehe=P

and my accessories actually look quite pretty now!!

time to start collecting accessories now!!=DD
i saw a pretty pretty black cap at fourskin!!which i feel like getting!! shall i??
Dance later!!

2006-10-15T09:15:00.000-07:00

The past few days have been exhausting.physically.mentally.emotionally.
everything happened so suddenly.

That's it i guess.Don't really feel like talking about it. so i'll tell you a story instead.

he was working in a watch shop downstairs.she help her aunt to babysit upstairs.their paths crossed.he often worked to exhaustion.whenever he was sick, she would take care of him.nurse him back to health.eventually they got married they were poor but happy,and their devotion to each other never wavered. when she worked late,he would always be at the bustop waiting for her.no matter what time it was.just to walk her back.many years later,disaster struck,as a fall led to a stroke,and other complications arose.he was bedridden, no longer able to speak,laugh.she continued to take meticulous care of him.in the hospital, whenever she left his side,his eyes would inevitably follow her around the room.the day came when he breathed his last,his eyes closed for the last time.greiving family members stood around his bed.each absorded in their own fond memories and thoughts of him.she stood by his bedside,his hand clasped in hers.together to the very end.
love.she had truly found it.

So say goodbye for just a while
and through the tears you'll start to smile
for soon we'll be together
in heavens arms forever.
at every step we're not alone
love by our side to lead us on
no looking back from here
our journey home has only has began

and thusly,it is concluded.Good bye ah kong. we'll miss you.

2006-10-10T09:18:00.000-07:00

Jesus,Lover of my soul.
Jesus, i will never let you go
You've taken me from the miry clay
Set my feet upon the rock
And now i know.

I love you.I need you
Though my world may fall
I'LL NEVER LET YOU GO

it's a really old song.one of the first songs that i sang when i first stepped into the house of God.and that is a step i've never regretted taking.
it's amazing how real God is. how all-emcompassing his love is. the way he never gives up on us,no matter what we're done.

sometimes when i reflect and think about it. i really can't help but shed tears when it hits me..that nothing i do can ever make him give up on me..or turn his face away from me..his love for us is just that great..

life isn't always easy.that is one thing i've learnt from the past year..but no matter what ,there is a very real God up there watching over us.

-she just sat there..tears streaking down her face.. as she wondered why she had to be the one to go through this..lamenting how unfair life was..she turned her face heavenward and asked the father where he was when she needed him,when she felt all alone..at once,she felt inexplicibly drawn to a book..turning it opening to a random page,the first thing she laid eyes on were these words:"the crowd gathered.some weeping with sorrow,yet others raging with anger.their attention focused on the frontlines, where there were mere children,being lined up to be shot just based on the "Crime"that they were of the wrong race.It was a scene my friend never forgot.then turning to me, he asked "where was God when these children needed him?If God is real,why didn't he stop them"i turned back to him, and realised. God is REAL. He was there for those children.HE SENT HIS ONLY SON TO DIE ON THE CROSS FOR US.US AND NO ONE ELSE BUT US.THE FACT IS THAT HE HAS GONE THROUGH WHAT THOSE CHILDREN WENT THROUGH.HE HAS SUFFERED EVERYTHING THAT YOU AND I HAVE SUFFERED AND WILL SUFFER.HE KNOWS WHAT IT IS LIKE AND WILL BE LIKE.HE HAS BEEN THERE.AND HE WILL BE THERE FOR US."shutting the book silently, she closed her eyes and said a silent prayer of thanks.the look on her face now a peaceful one"

How can we possibly turn our back on someone who loves us as much as that?

When the oceans rise
And Thunders roar
I will soar with you above the storm
Father you are king over the flood
I will be still.
Know you are God.

--sometimes we can't make the pain go away.but it helps knowing that someone is always there for you--

when you dance. you can't hide.

2006-10-06T23:52:00.000-07:00

In everything we do, we always strive to do better. to challenge ourselves to get to greater heights.

Dance is no exception.Dance isn't just movement. It's something more.when you dance. no words are sufficient to describe the feelings,the sensations you get.It's about giving your all.all the time.everytime.there is no hiding in dance. you are throughly exposing yourself,letting your emotions flow.when you dance. your're vulnerable. but being in that state takes strength,courage.and it's not easy. not one bit.

I don't think it's till recently that i learnt the real meaning of willpower.to reach the point where i think i've reached my limits, and then push myself even further. to just hold that position for those extra precious seconds, to get that extension just those few degrees higher. to squeeze those movement sequences into your already overloaded brain. to force the turnout just a little bit more.to go over that routine one last time.

and when you get it. nothing beats that feeling.

oh yes. and who can forget that feeling of triumph you get when you finish that extra set of crunches even though your abs feel like their on fire?

In the end. it's all worth it.

so in the end. i think i can safely say

I <3>

There is no half-way in dance. it's either nothing.or all the way.

2006-10-05T07:42:00.000-07:00

okie.so just one question

WHY DO SUCH NICE GIRLS STAY WITH SUCH COMPLETE AND TOTAL MORONIC IDIOTS??

seriously. the guy could be the biggest jerk you'd swear you've ever met, and the girl the sweetest prettiest person you know off, and yet she stay in the relationship,takes his shit, and keeps quiet about it.
completely and totally mum.

it's not even a singular case. the number of times i've had friends call up, sobbing about how awfully her guy has just treated her, i couldn't count on my fingers.

RAHH.

someone told me it's all about Dysfunctional relationships.
at first,the guy acts really sweet,charming,suave.the perfect gentleman.prince charming really.
after the girl agrees to be exclusive with him, he changes.
maybe not 180 degrees overnight.but slowy.surely.
next thing you know.
He watches her every move.
everything she does has to be reported to him.
she's never away from his side.
he insults much everything she does.
nothing's good enough for him anymore.
an then the girl starts to feel dependent, like she can't live without him.
there you have it.classic dysfunctional relationship.

it's really sad.when you see people who're you're close to,independent self-reliant perfectly capable girls,turning into timid mindless,controlled miserable ones.

=(

i'm not telling you to break-up. i'm just asking you to sit down and try to talk it out.

2006-10-04T00:21:00.000-07:00

Met wini on thursday before class.met her again yesterday.
laughed myself silly on both counts.God knows we do the strangest weirdest things.
:)

Met cory,sha,megs,matt,eric at panpac atrium yesterday. We took one of "the cabanas" as refered to by megs.It's so cute and cozy! I Totally love it:)
and eric was the epitome of cuteness yesterday. he was just so blur!!

i realized that for some strange reason i simply cannot hold my liquor in recent days. it's just so weird. and i can't think of any possible reason why.rahh.irritating.

roses are so pretty.especially the pink ones^.^

thursday.5/10-drinks at keyaki with my sweethearts
friday.6/10-going to meet felly at marina for drinks.shopping.unlimited fun.and talks.
tuesday.10/10-cheerleading?at?
wednesday11/10-outing with dance peeps!location as yet undecided.
thursday12/10-nyny with denise,georgia..ally?oops. better reconfirm
saturday14/10-finally meeting mj,mil,wini and co!!!

sounds like fun:)

i've got a secret you don't know

it's just..something

2006-09-27T01:04:00.000-07:00

I want that feeling back...
the feeling you get when you lose yourself in the music... the movement...
it's like recently i've been so conscious of myself in class... of the people around me...
it just feels so wrong.

i want to look forward to going to class as much as i used to..
i want to be able to dance without inhibitions to restrain me..
i wanna feel like i'm the only one in the room again..
i want to want to dance again..

sometimes some things are just not worth caring about..
but at other times.. they mean the world.

but sometimes. you just have to resolve to NOT CARE.

about some things. about some people. and sometimes.about your own family.
if that's what i have to do to mantain my sanity. that's what i'm going to do.

2006-09-24T08:44:00.000-07:00

i'm pissed. i'm REALLY quite pissed.

2006-09-23T01:10:00.000-07:00

Okay. Just got back from the watching the dance floor auditions.

Tingzhi and her group got in!!!=D
they were unique...

OMG I HAVE TALENTED TEACHERS.

Soul Fusion rocks my socks off kay!!! They were just like..WHOA. SO many piros and the tech was O.O la!And Of Course they got in.

haha. okay. so maybe i'm just a little bit bias.. but i don't think so..hehe=D
Daph was so cute on stage.she looked so nervous before and after..but she dances REALLY well. and Andy is FLEX la.. haha. could tell they were having fun.

wahaha.. this is gonna be an interesting comp to follow=)))

i want snapple!!!

2006-09-01T08:52:00.000-07:00

Bryant was sweet yesterday!!!
he ponned to pei me, but then i abandoned him with the ice-cream for dance=(
i really thought i was going to be late.
but he didn't get upset!YAY.
thanks bryant!!!

the shop called. The shirts are ready!!!hehe.
"i'm in love"
"but just not with you"
=X

some weird person added me on msn. but my desktop doesn't take chinese..so i can't read the nick. or the messages. so weird.

dance today was fun too!!!
but my left arch cramped 3 TIMES.
OMG. it's retarded okay.
i have practically no pain threshold=)

i am completely looking forward to taiwan!!! so fun!!=D
but we are very indecisive people.
we completely cannot decide which flight to take and how many days to stay=)

alright. i have fulfilled my commitment.goodnight=)

2006-08-30T18:29:00.000-07:00

Just finished quite a disturbing conversation.
nevermind.
I Shan't let it disturb me anymore.

I was young and in love
I gave you everything but it wasn't enough
and now you wanna communicate
You know it's just too little too late

Go find someone else
in letting you go I'm loving myself
you got a problem
but don't come asking me for help
Cause you know

It's just too little too late
a little too wrong
and I can't wait
but you know all the right things to say
you know it's just too little too late
You say you dream of my face
but you don't like me
you just ain't gonna change
to be real it doesn't matter anyway
You know it's just too little too late

I can love with all of my heart baby
I know I have so much to give
with a player like you I don't have a prayer
That's the way to live

So let me on down
cause time has made me strong
I'm starting to move on
I'm gonna say this now
your chance has come and gone
and you know

-do you really expect me to forget just like that?-

Stc peeps

2006-08-30T08:18:00.000-07:00

Isn't it funny?
Ever since i left stc, i've already met 3 people from there. all of whom are my seniors,and all of whom have a passion for dance=)

Audrey. who i met at the auditions
Georgia. who i met through alison
Szehunn. who i met through ladc

haha .funny right?

oh well. i guess singapore's really a very small place.

i bet if i just ask around abit more, i'll find a few more=)

think i'm going taiwan the following week. hmm.. i wonder if i can skip the meetings and just go shopping??hehe. worth a try right?

Love

2006-08-29T06:29:00.000-07:00

Basic Greek Lesson

The four types of Love:

Stagos-love as affection

Phileo-Love as friendship

Eros-Love that is Physical

Agape-Love that is Unconditional

It is therefore fitting to put this up i think=)

"Love in your heart wasn't put there to stay
Love isn't Love till you give it away"

and if you can't tell by now, i've been reading my sermon notes=)

Design your own smiley face day

2006-08-26T08:56:00.000-07:00

hmmm..
i think i should probably cut down on my food intake.
cos for the past few days i've been eating basically NON-STOP.
there's just so much good food out there.
and i'm not very good at resisting temptation you know?^^

Irony: i actually did my crunches consistently from monday to wednesday(claps hands), and went for stretch class on thursday,and did my muscles hurt? NOT ONE BIT.then i completely slack off on friday, and this morning i woke up with ACHING ABS AND LEGS.The kind that make you wince when you cough or laugh.go figure-.-

Rcently everyone's been putting smiley faces at the back of their messages. like..8 out of 10 people?so here are the variations: ;) :) =) ;D :D =D ;> :> =>

Adidas half jacket..OR..another nike sports-top..OR..project shop bag..OR..new bikini?

2006-08-24T21:26:00.000-07:00

Qn: How often do you shop?
Ans:Whenever i feel like it.

Okie. The past few days have been like one big foodfest.SO FUN.

I realise i'm currently quite obsessed with glittery stuff.

2006-08-22T20:53:00.000-07:00

I am unwritten, can't read my mind,
I'm undefinedI'm just beginning,
the pen's in my hand, ending unplanned
Staring at the blank page before you
Open up the dirty window
Let the sun illuminate the words that you could not find
Reaching for something in the distance
So close you can almost taste it
Release your inhibitions
Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins
The rest is still unwritten
Oh, oh, oh
I break tradition, sometimes my tries,
are outside the lines
We've been conditioned to not make mistakes,
but I can't live that way

Staring at the blank page before you
Open up the dirty window
Let the sun illuminate the words that you could not find
Reaching for something in the distance
So close you can almost taste it
Release your inhibitions
Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins
Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins
The rest is still unwritten

2006-08-22T00:32:00.000-07:00

It's irritating when you have a whirlpool of thoughts running through your head, and no matter how you try to sort them out, your efforts remain futile.

therefore, i have decided to simply allow myself to be RANDOM today.(notice how it's in caps=))

that generally means that i'll entertain pretty much any thought that comes to mind.no matter how weird or silly.
ergo, i appologize in advance for any random testimonials or messages or whatever=D

louisa:hey,what happened last night is really okay. In fact, it's probably better that she chose to speak to you now, as compared to letting you finish the course. It shows that she genuinely cares whether or not you can keep up in class. As for changing class, no one starts out as a fantastic, kick-ass dancer right away. It takes ALOT of hardwork.So cheer up okies? Think about how much easier everything will be to you when you work back up to that level.And if you're worried about not knowing anyone in the new class, i'll join with you, even though my hip-hop will probably have you in stitches for days.okay girl.Don't stress bout it anymore. SMILE=D
loves-xoxox

bryant:20/20!!!20/20!!!,oh. and no more "abit spicy" noodles for me-.-

sha:wrong,wrong,and wrong again!!!GIRL.!! STOP GUESSING!!yours guesses give me awful mental images=/

YAY

2006-08-20T04:06:00.000-07:00

Wheee!!! super stretch was fun=)

haha. we did some cute exercises.

It never fails to amaze me how relevant sermon is to our lives. It just goes to show that God is really soso real=)

so high now.
although i probably should have drank abit less last night.

he's soSO cute!!!
ahem. okie. shhh sera. shhh!!

i know. sometimes i question my sanity too=)

2006-08-17T23:34:00.000-07:00

And i never thought i'd feel this way
And as far as i'm concerned
I'm glad i got the chance to say
That i do believe i love you

And if i should ever go away
Well then close your eyes and try
To feel the way we do today
And then if you can't remember

Keep smiling,Keep shining
Knowing you can always count on me for sure.
That's what friends are for.
For good times and bad times
I'll be by your side forever more.
That"s what friends are for

And i have heard it all before
An di'll tell you one more time
So i can become really sure
So you know how much i love you

And if i should ever go away,
Well then close your eyes and try
To feel the way we do today
And then if you can' t remember

Keep smiling,Keeping shining
Knowing you can always count on me for sure
That's what friends are for
For good times and bad times
I'll be by your side forever more
That's what friends are for
And then if you can't remember

2006-08-17T07:45:00.000-07:00

I'M SO SICK OF PEOPLE TELLING ME THAT I HAVE SUCH AN EASY LIFE BECAUSE I CHOOSE TO TAKE DANCE AS A CAREER.

it's just such an irritating occurance. have you ever ben to a dance class?
or are you one of those people who tell me pointe shoes have wooden blocks at the toe area so it's easy to stand on them?

why do dancers often end up with dancers?because only people who love dance know what it's like to dance.
and once you know what it's like to dance,you can't help but love it=)

oh ya. regarding HIM. i really won't tell you who he is. so pls stop asking=)
i spent abit of time thinkning about this issue.
yep. it's probably wrong to like him,lol, X that. it's almost definately wrong.
but that's okay. i'll take my time to grow up=)
and just enjoy myself now.

2006-08-13T07:08:00.000-07:00

uh-oh. i think i'm starting to like someone.

=(

i's completely totally wrong.
but i can't really help the fact that he's so funny and cute.
this is SO not good.

oh well. what can you do?

2006-08-07T08:34:00.000-07:00

WHY AM I SO EMO??

grr..cried at svc,cried when watching video,betcha gonna cry on wed night.
confirmed gonna cry on saturday.

damn it.
get a grip girl.get a grip.

2006-07-24T08:19:00.000-07:00

i don't really like to think at night.
it's usually when all the depressing thoughts start to appear.

maybe it's because people get negative when they get tired.

when do i know something's wrong with me?
when i don't feel like eating.

2006-07-21T19:28:00.001-07:00

we bought a HUGE bouquet of flowers for tim. omg. theey are SO gorgeous.
megs took only about 20 pictures of them. so if you wanna dazzle your eyes,
you can go ask her for a peek=D

i can't find my dance sneakers.like anywhere. it's irritating me. RAHH.

i want a digicam!!i really really do!!
then i can take pictures of all the pretty and awesome ppl who populate my life.
oh.
and i can photowhore too=)

i have no affinity with the gym you know.seriously
i either have no time, or no energy.-.-

Do you know alot of people use the mrt to pass time?
reallyreally.
for example, during emerge, xingjuan took the mrt 42 stops. just to get from morning to afternoon session.

2006-07-18T06:54:00.000-07:00

I solemnly swear that I do not have anger management problems. I just have a hot temper, and some people just don't know when to shut up.

It almost seems like these people are screaming "KILL ME" right in my face.

Sheesh.

you know those heavy doors linking doors at citylink?
this guy just let one of them almost slam into cory's face.
so she got pissed, and walked really fast after him.
then he stepped back onto her foot.onto her HURT foot.
so she said "chivalry is DEAD'
he heard(duh) and said:obviously bitchness is not
so she just walked ahead and replied."well don't state the obvious.you're the walking epitome of it."
it's never a good idea to mess with one of my darlings.

oh. and timothy is coming back.finally.

Birthdays!!

2006-07-10T18:17:00.000-07:00

Today is Andy's birthday!!
Tomorrow is Georgia's birthday!!
Day after is Another Andy's birthday!!

Georgia's pressie is pretttyyyO.O
and i have no comment regarding the andy's present(s)
they'll probably make yr eyes go O.o
hehe...

eat all day,party all night!!!
welcome to the life of the foodies=)

2006-07-09T00:08:00.000-07:00

i don't understand it.. and things that i don't understand irritate me.. especially things like these...
how is it possible that my feelings fluctuate simply based on something that you say?
i see things falling apart right before my eyes, and yet all i do is stay here,and take it.
it's one of those things where your feet are rooted to the ground,and there's a giant tree falling towards you. sure, you hear the shouts, and you see the danger looming. but for some reason, your feet simply ignore the signals your brain is sending out.

argh. how irritating. i'm becoming sentimental again.oh joy.

come on feet. MOVE.

it doesn't even affect you

2006-06-23T16:43:00.001-07:00

some people you see as friends, but they don't see you as friends
some people you see as being there, but in crunch time their not there for you
some people you see as part of your life, but they're never there to make an impact
some people you care for, but they don't care for you
some people you see as those you're close to, but they never initiate contact
some people you see as being close to you, but their just making use of you
some people you see as friends, but in the end all they do is hurt you

the closer you let someone in, the more they can hurt you.but then i already knew that
but of all people, the one i least thought would do this, is you.i never used to believe that someone could change so much after entering a relationship. but you proved me wrong.
so what i'm going to do, is take a step back, cause i don't know who you're going to turn on next, but it sure as hell won't be me.

2006-06-23T16:43:00.000-07:00

2006-06-23T07:40:00.000-07:00

this isn't a friendship. it's not even close.
it's just some SICK IMITATION of one.

=)

2006-06-22T07:55:00.000-07:00

watched silent hill with allison
sat down at coffee club(paragon) to have a snack and chat
i like ~~coffee~~,~~chocolate~~,~~vanilla~~,~~peppermint~~,strawberry ice cream
went for dance
continuing class there next week
i AM going to buff her nails
next weeks stretch class will be KILLER(i think)

oh ya,

I AM GONNA GET THAT JACKET. I AM.

that girl is super sweet=)

why?

2006-06-21T07:28:00.001-07:00

everyone is LOVESICK. and i do mean EVERYONE.almost.
=(
lovesick ppl are generally vexed.no?

2006-06-17T06:44:00.000-07:00

that was just so unreal. seriously. not that class didn't rock. the last session was just so..unexpected..wow. just goes to show people and things never fail to amaze you huh?
i never thought i'd see you cry. but it just makes you more human :)

thanks for being there people...
i really <3 you all so much.

2006-05-24T19:46:00.000-07:00

i wasn't really planning on updating,unfortunately,i have this habit of checking minjia's blog..so i guess...
quiz:1)name 8 diff points of your perfect lover
2)tag 8 diff ppl

okies,here goes...1)has to basically be nice
2)be able to talk to
3)fun!!
4)i have to think he's cute=P
5)understanding
6)loves me
7)has to give me a sense of security
8)chemistry.lol

tag:qing,fen,hua,ally,cory,megs,mil,tim

2006-05-23T08:31:00.000-07:00

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Go to this site-http://pigseye.kennesaw.edu/%7Embulloc1/page3.html

i'm sorry for the way i've been living my life

2006-05-22T07:57:00.000-07:00

Jesus take the wheel
Take it from my hands
Cause I can't do this all my own
I'm letting go
So give me one more chance
To save me from this road I'm on

Oh, Jesus take the wheel
Oh, I'm letting go
So give me one more chance
Save me from this road I'm on
From this road I'm on
Jesus take the wheel
Oh, take it, take it from me
Oh, why, oh

go fly a kite

2006-05-20T21:35:00.000-07:00

I HATE YOU.
JUST GO AWAY.

2006-05-19T05:46:00.000-07:00

Name 20 people you can think of right now at the top of your head. Don't read the questions underneath until you write the names of all 20 people. At the end tag at least 5 people.

1.MINJIA
2.WINIFRED
3.ALLISON
4.QING
5.ANDY
6.KEEHAN
7.CORY
8.GLENN
9.YISONG
10.MILDRED
11.GEORGIA
12.SHIZHEN
13.EEREN
14.DAPHENY
15.JOANNE
16.LOUISA
17.SHA
18.NAT
19.AUDREY
20.MR POON
1. How did you meet 14?
She's my oh-so-hot ballet teacher=)
2. What would you do if you've never met 1?
i would be a very sad person,and i wouldn't love turtles as much=p

3. What would you do if 20 and 9 dated
err...i don't really think they're gay enough..

4. Did you ever like 19?
haha!!i still do!!!i love her!!=D

5. Would 6 and 17 make a good couple?
NO! they would both be sued for attempted murder on the first date

6. Describe 3.
NICE.HOT.SEXY.very cool and fun!!!
and very talented girl=D

7. Do you think 8 is attractive?
HELLO. Isn't it a common group consensus that he's one of the cutest guys in the group?

8. Tell me something about 7.
my BABE!!! she' smart,pretty,an aceaceace dancer

9. Do you know any of 12's family?
haha. i've met her parents before, does it count?

10. What's 8's favourite?
favourite what?

11. What would you do when 18 confesses that he/she likes you?
LOL.been there done that

12. What language(s) does 15 speak?
english,chinese,er...girltalk?

13. Who is 9 going out with?
lols! why don't you let me know when you find out?

14. How old is 16 now?
17 gg on 18, but doesn't act it at all

15. When was the last time you talked to 13?
wow....er.....very long ago....

16. What is 2's favourite band/singer?
currently? that soundtrack thingy that had me walking all over cityhall area.

17. Would you ever date 4?
i'm not really into lesbianism

18. Would you ever date 7?
yesyesyes!!!haha...if i was a guy la...

19. Is 15 single?
haha..dunno..but she's so hot, i seriously doubt so..

20. What's 10's last name?
chia

21. Would you ever be in a serious relationship with 11?
if i was a guy..then maybe?

22. What school does 3 go to?
she's going to laselle!!

23. Where does 6 live?
bukit timah area..block i dunno what...

24. What's fav thing about 5?
CUTE.VERYVERY CUTE.hehe

2006-05-18T08:44:00.000-07:00

coming home from ladc was stupid.the only thing that made it bearable was audrey=)love the girl.
we were waiting for a cab, and this guy comes up.
IDIOT:cuse me, are yr waiting for a cab?
girls:ya
IDIOT:ic, well you see, my friends and i have been waiting for a long time, could you stand behind us or something?
girl:oh,okay, don't worry, we won't flag , we'll let your have the cab first
IDIOT:okay, thanks.what are your names?
girls:huh?
IDIOT:what are your names?i'm johnson
girls:can you please leave us alone?
IDIOT:no la, relax, i just wanna make friends.
girls:why do you need to know our names?we'll let yr take a cab first,go stand with your friends
IDIOT:just wanna make friends la, are your working?
ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ
and then later on...
IDIOT:where are your schooling?
girl:i'm home-schooled.
IDIOT:oh, private school?
girl:NO,home schooled.
IDIOT:oh, so the school is near your home la
girl:NO,I SCHOOL AT HOME
IDIOT:oh, so the school is next to your home la..
ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ
ahem...and...
IDIOT:can i have your numbers?
girl:LOOK! CAN YOU JUST PLEASE JUST LEAVE US ALONE?I MEAN, WOULD YOU STILL TRY AND PICK US UP IF WE WERE FAT UGLY BITCHES??GO AWAY!!!
ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ
guess what?he still didn't give up.so we took mrt and bus,LAME-ASS
so you see, it's not that us girls like to stereotype you guys, but sometimes, you just really give us a really bad impression.

okies,went out with allison,georgia and louisa today..so much fun!!!haha...went ljs cos lou wanted to, but the two girls ended up eating kfc..haha...so cute.. then we started talking bout church, and turns out allison is pst kelvin's wife's sister...haha.. so coincidental right? lols...
then we shopped abit...and louisa had to leave for cell... then the 3 of us went to candy empire=D lols! sugar rush! hehe...
following, we went to ladc studio earlier,and had dance.. dapheny was asking us if we wanted to take intermediate exams...hmm..okayy..then during superstretch, my leg cramped!!!! like, so painful la...
then in the next exercise, allison got hurt!!!it's like, somehow her leg got pushed too hard, and she overstretched...ouch!! and she was crying=(((
but like after that, she still wanted to go clubbing though it hurt...=(
hope she feels better soon...

nostalgic

2006-05-17T20:18:00.000-07:00

my feelings have been totally haywire lately,quite in unison with my thoughts actually.hmmm..
some things you just can't put down in words sometimes....
but still....nvm..

went out with wini yesterday...and we had this weird conversation about what "i don't know" means.does it mean yes or no? lols. if it's by guys,absolutely no idea...but if it's for girls, our conclusion is that "i......don't know" generally means no, or that the girl is sorting out her thoughts...,and "i don't know" means yes, or she really doesn't know? lols! not a very fruitful conclusion right? haha.oh well...nevermind..it was fun anyway...oh! and we got voodoo dolls for qing and mj!!haha. so cute la.. mine looks like a cheerleader=)

ahem so anyways, there's dance later=)
haha..dance is so much fun...YAY! love dance=)

2006-05-15T04:35:00.000-07:00

i fully agree with minjia.completely and fully agree.
we're what, 17?
and yet how many of us are letting bgr's get in the way of what we're actually pursuing on a long-term basis?arghh...this world is getting so confusing.
the older generation says,:don't let a relationship affect your future because it's not worth it. it's much more worthwhile to focus first,because relationships could hinder your progress and the development of your ambitions and dreams in life .

yeps.quite true you know,it might seem really important to be in a relationship now because everyone else is in one, or for whatever other reasons people can state,but if you look back, it is worth it?

love?,career progression,relationships,peer pressure?advancement

of course, it's the easiest thing in the world to say this when your not completely and totally enamoured, but maybe it doesn't go in that easily when your in "love"/love?

i just think it's starting to get really sad when you see a pattern,
and maybe, just maybe, i'm starting to regret..really regret....and not just for me.

--and then it starts to get complicated--

2006-05-14T06:41:00.000-07:00

WHY CAN YOU NOT UNDERSAND THAT MY LIFE IS NOT PERFECT?
AND I AM NOT PERFECT.

DON'T PUT YOUR HOPES ON ME.

I NEVER SAID I WOULD NEVER LET YOU DOWN

STOP SAYING YOUR DISAPPOINTED WITH ME

I AM NOT HERE TO FULFILL YOUR WISHES AND YOUR DREAMS FOR YOU.

I WILL BE DEFENSIVE AND RASH IF I WANT TO BE.

YOUR LIFE IS NOT MY LIFE.I WILL BE MEAN AND SELFISH IF I CHOOSE TO BE.

BUT THEN,

I NEVER SAID I WAS PERFECT.

--I am tired of ALL of you and ALL of this.just leave me ALONE.PLEASE--

2006-05-11T07:40:00.000-07:00

L.A.D.C is fun=)

was superbeat yesterday. have no idea why... so had dance...then met qing first..then went on to greatworld to transfer bus to ngeeann to meet wini...end up eeren came out before her..zzz...shows you who has to walk further? or who procrastinates=P whichever suits you.then ended up mil was in ngee ann. lols! go figure.oh ya. ran into annabelle too=)

okies. we went to taka... then far east.. far east was really...far...lols... or maybe we were just tired...lols...then proceeded to paragon...where we were treated to some lousy service by the delifrance staff...zzz...

after that took a bus with qing to btp for foundation..er.. i think i will transfer to abc 1...

and qing is happy again=))

oh ya. i got a new purple top=) shall wear it tommorow=D

hmm..today was relaxed..

slept in=)..then went for lunch with jesse and mandy...after which went hme to settle key issues...made some plans then went for dinner with my neighbour...

then on to dance...today was the first superstretch class...lols...quite fun...
audrey and allison were there=)

hmmm...let's see if i can't map out my week..

friday: dance(10-12),outing with mj,qing..meeting with wini and mil...shopping!!!=D
saturday:dance7.30-10),lunch with megs,skating with cory and co?,mother's day dinner with father's side extended family
sunday: spend the day with my mummy=),dance prac
monday:dance(7.30-9.30),(_________)
tuesday:wahaha. set aside for leg breaking(shall i join abc 1?)
wednesday:breakfast with my girls,dance(10-11.30),clean-up condo,meet sha,dance(6.30-8)
thursday:sleep in=) outing with allison and audrey,dance(7-9)

LOL. that's about as far as my mind can go. can't think anyfurther then next thursday.
(note to self:25+25+25+20=95) rmb to set aside 95...

--Problems seem so important, but their all inside your head,One day they mean the world to you.the next you will forget--

2006-05-09T05:28:00.000-07:00

I'm an angel, I'm a devil
I am sometimes in between
I'm as bad it can get
And good as it can be
Sometimes I'm a million colors
Sometimes I'm black and white
I am all extremes
Try figure me out you never can
There's so many things I am

I'm someone filled with self-belief
I'm haunted by self-doubt
I've got all the answers
I've got nothing figured out
I like to be by myself
I hate to be alone
I'm up and I am down
But that's part of the thrill
Part of the plan
Part of all of the things I am

I am special
I am beautiful
I am wonderful
I'm powerful
Unstoppable
Sometimes I'm miserable
Sometimes I'm pitiful
But that's so typical of all the things I am
of all the things i am

I'm a million contradictions
Sometimes I make no sense
Sometimes I'm perfect
Sometimes I'm a mess
Sometimes I'm not sure who I am

don't you just hate it when someone tries to mess up your life?

--Queen of superficiality,get your lies out of my reality--

things that rock my socks off.

2006-05-08T09:18:00.000-07:00

my darling qingqing
subway sandwiches
rootbeer floats
freddo choco frogs!
my unbelievably cute angelic jessie
so you think you can dance.

but they eliminated craig!!!NOOOOOOOOO!!!
how could they??sobsob...
haiz...well, at least melody's still on the show, and nick...

too tired to make sense of anything right now. just in one of those
i'm-happy-but-i don't-know-why-i'm-happy moods.

must be the sugar rush

motto of the day:eat now, pay later.lols!!!

2006-05-07T07:18:00.000-07:00

lately a lot of people have me making me see the blessings in my life.
seriously,how blessed am i?

i must not complain. i shall resolve not to complain. how many people in life are lucky enough to do pursue their passion as a career?even if it means hard work, it also means enjoyable hard work. work that i actually love doing=)
that means it doesn't count as work at all.=D

lols. what am i saying? lols. i think i'm simply quite delirious at this point of time.

Hold me
Whatever lies beyond this morning
Is a little later on
Regardless of warnings
the future doesn't scare me at all
Nothing's like before

fake,very very fake-1

2006-05-06T00:24:00.000-07:00

When you think about it, isn't it people who are themselves petty or who bear grudges who end up suffering the most? If people are selfish, aren't they the ones who end up losing out?So why do we let it get to us so much? Let it bother us to the extent that we end up acting irrationally?

if we are able to take a step back and set aside our emotions, it's actually quite interesting to watch some people try to manipulate the people around them, yet end up being the ones who the tables are turned on then you see people who claim to be your friends, yet show a completely different facade of themselves when you're not around. Is that human nature? are all friendships that shallow?or just some?

after an incident last year, i remember Matthew saying" your all acting so immaturely, just try to take a step back and look at the situation rationally"or something along those lines.
thinking back, i suppose he was right, though of cos it's much easier to say that now as compared to when the situation was a "work in progress".

after all, doesn't everyone's true colours emerge eventually?

~because i'm not who i was~
~when i took my first step~
~and i'm clinging to the promise~
~you're not through with me yet~
~so if all of these trails bring me closer to you~
~then i will go through the fire~
~if you want me to~

I LOVE YOU BECAUSE YOU FIRST LOVED ME

2006-05-05T08:38:00.000-07:00

go for one pos prac , and you find yrself commited...oh well...just stunts can't be that bad i suppose, seeing as how we can't commit to anything more..lols..met a group of sji noob bases...zzz...really noob man.. lols...nv absorb. shall drag bryant for them to play on first, then sarah can take over when they become pro.lols!
ahem. finally got to meet the famous micheal today... haha. sunflower!!!=DDD

something happened during prac today. they were playing paddle ball, and stephaine hit the ball and it landed in my shirt.!!! so nvm. i got it out and threw it back to them. and this guy, edmund, was like."feels good?want me to do it again?" i mean HELLO!!! what an idiot. but bryant was like. he's a nice guy ltr. so wadever..grrr...
new mantra:must be nice in church...must be nice in church...

i met tina on the way home at bv!! haha...she's hot la. the kind that can turn straight girls crooked.lols! kidding. but she looked really sexy all dressed up. hehe...

my navy leotard is getting old.. i shall get a new one along with a sleeved black one..yay!

i wanna go shopping!!!
sobsob..really wanna go...new dansneakers !!yay!!!
**shopaholic alert**

--That is what sets dancers apart.the LOVE of dancing and the sheer desire to dance--

senseless ramblings...

2006-05-04T23:24:00.000-07:00

yesterday was the first lesson at ladc..lols.. okies... quite fun...definately better than atitudes...it's kinda like their level 2 class i think...
my releve sucks..lols. have to go work on it...
awww.. i owe qing an apology cause i didn't meet her at kap...had to take care of jan...

dance is fun=) it's tiring, especially if you really push yourself, but it's really fun, cause you feel really happy after each class.=DD dunno why, apparently not everyone feels like that... some people just feel happy that it's over...if that's the case, then what for dance?puzzling people..

i'm supposed to be doing stunts in the j.e building now for pos.. hmm.. can you do stunts with a hurt ankle? lols...better get my ankle support...

i really wanna get new sweat pants..reallyreally do..lols..who shall i pull with me?

i was surfing some apparel sites earlier, and i saw this!! so pretty right?? lols!! but it's like..$150? and i have to ship it from the US...sobsob...don't care. i wanna get it=D

okies...cannot slack alr...i have to go prepare to do stunts...

2006-05-03T06:01:00.000-07:00

I have a very annoying idiot sitting next to me jabbering non-stop now,and he just slapped my arm cause I called him a idiot. Classic case of denial. Oh well.just for that i'm gonna say.
DARREN IS INFINITY TIMES CUTER THAN DENZEL.STUPID DENZ.

grrr. Getting on my nerves.. anyways,idiots aside, i got bad news today.. Apparently if i want to pon Wednesday morning class consistently, and go for that slacker class, i have to go for TWO slacker classes. on wed and fri.. zzz...How annoying. It's fun to dance, but i already don't have any time for myself, and now i have to squeeze more things in?zzz.. i need my life back.

oh the brighter side, i met a girl from nanhua today who knows hazel. and apparently she's from the same primary school as me. lols. Small world.

i went for lunch with megs today. she's is such a darling=) we spent half an hour watching the little kids,(grade2?) doing their exercises and jumps. so cute!!lols.
then i went to meet qing. haven't seen her for a very lonnnng time. but it was fun drilling her in geog. lols. until eeren came along la. then she got totally distracted.oh well. expected.lols.
then met lou and walked to btp...

i miss that stupid nat who has to complete term before coming back. haiyo. keep making me work with tim.

oh my gosh, i need some time to myself. where does all my time go??

--but just because you love me the way that you do, i'm gonna walk through the valley. if you want me to.--

kindly,shut UP

2006-05-02T06:57:00.000-07:00

There you go
you're always so right
it's all a big show
its all about you
you think you know
what everyone needs
you always take time
to criticise me
it seems like everyday
i make mistakes
i just cant get it right
it's like im the one
you love to hate
but not today

so shut up shut up shut up
don't wanna hear it
get out get out get out
get out of my way
step up step up step up
you'll never stop me
nothing you say today
is gonna bring me down

there you go
you never ask why
it's all a big lie
whatever you do
you think your special
but i know and i know and i know
and we know
that you're not
your always there to point out
my mistakes
and shove them in my face
it's like im the one you love to hate
but not today

so shut up shut up shut up
don't wanna hear it
get out get out get out
get out of my way
step up step up step up
you'll never stop me
nothing you say todayis gonna bring me down

don't tell me who i should be
and don't try to tell me whats right for me
don't tell me what i should do
i don't want to waste my time
i'll watch you fade away
so shut up shut up shut up
don't wanna hear it
get out get out get out
get out of my way
step up step up step up
you'll never stop me
nothing you say today
is gonna bring me down

so shut up shut up shut up
don't wanna hear it
get out get out get out
get out of my way
step up step up step up
you'll never stop me
nothing you say today
is gonna bring me down

--i was there for you, but you weren't there for me.--

home sweet home!

2006-05-01T03:28:00.000-07:00

yay! it's good to be home again=). the trip was fun!!! the place, rider's lodge was quite nice, in a rustic sort of way..but the food was okay,but realllly complicated... i still like my subway=D
haven't ridden for soooo long!! lols! the lessons were okay revision, but the trail ride was the really fun part=D..at one poinht, while we were riding through a plantation, there was this snake coiled up, and the pathway was quite narrow, so we had to step over it. it didn't really look dead, but the guide stepped over it, so we followed him. so scary la! don't like snakes=( lols. then after that we went shopping!!! lols. i have like..2 new jackets and four new tops...lols!yay. funfun trip=DD
i <333 home!!!

2006-04-27T08:48:00.000-07:00

Comparatively,dance today was totally opp. we got scolded cause we were just going through the motions..not really trying...hmm..it's quite true ...okies. must work harder=)

so i went out with wini and peeps today....
and spent the afternoon going around orchard with wini..lols..haven't done that for a long time alr...=) mj and kj were 2 hrs late to meet us..but nvm..cause they had a valid reason...wini was really sweet =)pei me to sign up for the course TWICE..cause the place wasn't open the first time...and alison did the transaction today..lols! she was like..so formal...
mj's always so fun=)she said she saw qing today...thou i wonder why she and eeren and co. can't get along?
then i got to go to wini's hse and get confused by all the different serials..lols! but nvm..quite fun ..

okies. super tired. hafta go sleep now.<3>--thank you for bringing the smile back to my life=)--

2006-04-26T20:49:00.000-07:00

"Welcome To My Life"
Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you
Do you ever wanna run away?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming
No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like

Welcome to my life
Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more?
Before your life is over
Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With their big fake smiles and stupid lies
While deep inside you're bleeding
No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked
when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
No one ever lied straight to your face
And no one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I'm happy but I'm not gonna be okay
Everybody always gave you what you wanted
You never had to work it was always there
You don't know what it's like,
what it's like
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like (what it's like)
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

2006-04-26T07:52:00.000-07:00

why does she have to be like that? why??
what did i say wrong this time? do i have to watch everything i do and say so closely with my own family? closer than i do with outsiders?can i help it if you don't believe me? nothing i say is going to convince you anyway. why should i even bother trying? how much do you think anymore of us can take? sorry,so your disappointed in me, ashamed of me. well you can just FUCK OFF. you think i give a shit what you think anymore. nope. i give up on it. give up on trying to be tolerant.on trying to be nice and sweet. why should i be?how many times can you say sorry?

--so basically your telling me i'm the epitome of everything you don't want in your life. fine. i can deal with that.--

--sorry, i don't resign myself to a thing called fate--

different

2006-04-25T07:42:00.000-07:00

strange isn't it? how much people can change..=(
it just seems sad.. how different some people are now..like.. i almost don't know them anymore.. even if we used to be close... but i guess that's life... though accepting facts doesn't mean i have to like it right? guess everyone changes and we all move on...sometime..

--Sometimes i just wish we were still in the past...too bad that's just wishful thinking--

2006-04-25T06:34:00.000-07:00

i rotted today...like literally...at least the second half of the day when i was kap...aft dance (pirouette on pointe=D)i went hme to freshen up, then went to kap...to meet qing? or at least i thought i was meeting qing..turns out i was meeting everyone else too...lols! didn't say hi to kaijun again!!lols!then aft they left at about 6? i rotted til 7 when zhen was suppsed to meet me for dinner. but dinner was fun=) yay...

yisong hurt his leg..=(hope he gets better soon..

was i hostile to everyone today? didn't really realise..sorry!

subway outing is postponed to nxt thursday...sobsob..=(

louisa tay minyi didn't return my calls!!! 5 missed calls!!! fine la..you die alr minyi...

I AM NOT GOING TO MORNING DANCE TOMORROW. I WILL GO NIGHT CYCLING. I DON'T CARE.YAY

hmmm...maybe gg away this weekend to some bintan place so my sister gets to go horse riding..hmmm.. okies.. i shall find a way to entertain myself then..

2006-04-24T22:15:00.000-07:00

"Walk Away"
You've got your mother and your brother
Every other undercover
Tellin' you what to say
You think I'm stupid
But the truth is
That it's cupid, baby
Lovin' you has made me this way
So before you point your finger
Get your hands off of my trigger
Oh yeah
You need to know this situation's getting old
And now the more you talk
The less I can take, oh
I'm looking for attention
Not another question
Should you stay or should you go?
Well, if you don't have the answer
Why you still standin' here?
Hey, hey, hey, hey
Just walk away
Just walk away
Just walk away
I waited here for you
Like a kid waiting after school
So tell me how come you never showed
?I gave you everything
And never asked for anything
And look at me
I'm all alone
So, before you start defendin'
Baby, stop all your pretendin'
I know you know
I know
So what's the point in being slow
Let's get the show on the road today
HeyI'm looking for attention
Not another question
Should you stay or should you go?
Well, if you don't have the answer
Why you still standin' here?
Hey, hey, hey, hey
Just walk away
Just walk away
Just walk away
I wanna love
I want a fire
To feel the burn
My desires
I wanna man by my side
Not a boy who runs and hides
Are you gonna fight for me?
Die for me?
Live and breathe for me?
Do you care for me?
'Cause if you don't then just leave
I'm looking for attention
Not another question
Should you stay or should you go?
Well, if you don't have the answer
Why you still standin' here?
Hey, hey, hey, hey
Just walk away
If you don't have the answer
Walk away
Just walk away
Then just leave
Yeah yeah
Walk away
Walk away
Walk away
LOLS!! YAY CORY!! WE RULE!!!=DD

ecnad

2006-04-23T20:30:00.000-07:00

DANCE IS ACE!!lols...just finished modern and ballet...sooo fun!!! omgosh, i'm always high after dance.=D

and i've seen the latest costume they wanna get. So nice!!! yay! My honey has impeccable taste kkaes...lols.. and now i have to go make a design for the shirt..uh-oh. art got an F you know...but maybe that's because i didn't hand my piece in..lols!

my daddy saw my bank book=S
gonegonegone..time to cut down...after thursday.. cause this week i'm meeting some special people=)

--there is NO logic in unconditional love--

2006-04-23T08:28:00.000-07:00

okay, so i just finished playing that dynasty warriors game, during which the weirdest dialouge was exchanged. it went something like

"turn!turn back! the main guy gonna get killed alr! have to go back and help him!"
" why i turn? you turn la! i'm killing alot of people you know!my count catching up with you"
"because i dunno which way to go!"
" put on your map la stupid"
" which button??he's dying!!turn!!"
" don't want!!no horse! very slow! "
then
*game over*because the general we're supposed to be protected just got killed..
lols. then we'll break for wahile before playing another scenerio, and everything will repeat itself. isn't it amazing how we just go to pieces when we panic?lols.but nvm. it was good mindless entertainment.
i finally packed my cd collection today=) and i realised i have about 5 empty covers=( i have to make it a point to get my cd's back...

kap will be my third home this week. why am i meeting everyone there anyway?...basically cos everyone's in ngee ann poly i guess...lols..oh well..

oh ya..i just realised the times are totally off.. like i can blog at 11pm, and it comes out 8am? lols...oh well...

i miss my loverr and dear!!!=(

but it's okay. i shall see them all soon=D

2006-04-22T07:23:00.000-07:00

I wanna look inside myself and see my heart is black
i see my red door and it's headed into black
maybe then i'll fade away and not have to face the facts
it's not easy facing facing up to facts when your whole world seems to be black.

please stop telling me how lucky i am, please please just stop.

--can i decide not to care what you think?--

2006-04-21T23:46:00.000-07:00

It's a very easy thing to shift blame. like if you fail a class, isn't is just so easy to turn to turn to the next person and exclaim that it's the teacher's fault because he/she didn't teach well?
or if you fail at something you attempt, isn't it equally easy to look at the surrounding circumstances and pronounce them the reason of your failure? i'm not saying that there are no real situations which really abide by the hopeless law, or which really exude bleakness, but aren't we all guilty of induling in self-pity sometimes? i know i am.so what makes the difference between the winners and the losers? the people who stand up just to fall down again, and the people who just sit there and give up?attitude? or strength of character? the company they keep? or is there really just one deciding factor?
lols. obviously been thinking too much again..=)

-there is always hope in GOD=)-

fine dining

2006-04-21T08:50:00.000-07:00

LOLS! Omgosh,so fun!! okies, so had solo class today. so fun!! we just basically competed to see who could do what steps better,needlessly to say, the girls won adage and center work=D,then went to get my shoes with my sweetie today, but they didn't have the ribbon shoes i wanted=( so i had to get elastic ones and convert the other ones..then went to get her specs...someone keeps calling me a bum!!lols.
after that went to marina square to look for wini n mil. ended up spending almost an hour waiting for wini and mj..but nvm=)
had mil to keep me company=D. then walked around marina..and eventually decided to go to candy empire. unfortunately, we got side-tracked at some place called kenko wellness. ended doing foot reflexlogy...lols! ouch la! but mj was making sooon much noise, and wini fell asleep!! how could she?? and mil got to sit and be bored for half an hour. lols. ended up at the "fine dining" place late.it was rosette at shatec. so ulu,lols. but the meal was super amusing=)
firstly, the waiter acted like we owed him money liddat, kept demanding to know what we wanted for a main course, then came the courses.

COURSE 1:prawn with salad and tofu with floss garnished with peach mayonaise.
we figured out the which fork to use when,mil debated whether or not to eat the prawn, mj glared at the prawn till wini ate it for her, then mj got obsessed with the bread.omgosh. the bread!!lols! wini tried and failed to protect her bread from mj's excessive buttering,then kept dipping the bread in the mayo, and mil cut her bread with the fork amd knife!! lols!!=DDD

COURSE 2: essence of chicken, with chicken roll and seaweed.
this was preceeded by a discussion on how to scoop the soup, and basic table manners. lols! so we all scooped the soup AWAY from us, and then didn't dare to drink it cos we were too busy laughing.and mj kept threathening to do a merlion! lols.then a second debate occured whether the roll contained crab meat, because some people have allergies.

COURSE 3: sherbert.
the safest course, and the most universally accepted and approved course. all we did was talk about what flavour it was, because we all came to different conclusions.then we started to talk about qing and her bio prac. lols!!shhhh=X

COURSE 4: the main course,braised lamb shank with grilled slip lobster and veggies on the side with a sort of potato pattie.
minjia just stared at it. before giving the pattie to wini, then ate one bite, and started telling us about how she was a vegetarian.mil ate the grilled lobster, then started wondering if she had allergies, decided she didn't care, and proceeded to cut up the lamb with a gallant effort before eventually giving up. wini just whined and whined about how much potato she had to eat, before going round the table demanding to know if the lamb was nice. about this point of time, we decided the nxt round, we would all stick with subway next time.

COURSE 5:mango cream with fruits
there was a strange crystal like garnishing on the cake, and no one could decide if it was sugar or plastic, so mj bravely took a bite, and proclaimed there was no taste. then wini tried it, and said it was a sugar ornament. so mil and i,decided to stay away from it. yay! we're smart=D
then after that came the coffee. lols! wini asked for 2 teaspoons of sugar, then took a sip and prompted called the guy back to ask for 3 more. mj got too much creamer in hers, and refused to drink it.then we tried to fill in the feedback form, and ahem, got into some really weird situation.
lols!!

after that we went to cine, and did abit of shopping=)
so basically it was an awesome night=DD it was sooo much fun!!lols!! i realllly love my babes and darlings!!lols!!yay!!
dunno why i've been in such a good mood lately=) even my sister's famed father barre award kindness and generosity couldn't get me down.
lols!qing, i miss you too!!

yay!

2006-04-20T20:02:00.000-07:00

omgosh! my life is really brimming full of lovelylovely people!! yay!! lucky blessed me!=D
lols.nothing to make a person more cheerful than a conversation with my darlings. really love them sooooo much=).*muack**
sheryl may be coming to church this week. =D
and i get to meet sop and jo for dinner this week.yays!
and the rest of my dance courses starting soon=)
lols. i'm so seriously in such a good mood right now=D
((=
what's the point of counting the set-backs of life when you can count the blessings?

2006-04-20T04:04:00.000-07:00

Today was a fun day=),or at least it was funny.
the juniors tried lifts, and basically all of them were throwing the girls, not lifting them..result?
LOTS of screaming.i never knew meg's voice could reach that octaval.lols. oh well...violent people...
Gonna watch burn the floor with sha and jan!!!yay!!heard it's really good=)
I wanna watch take the lead!!!any takers??
lols...i'm headed for broke..

tmr's gonna be a fun day too! get to go for solo class(=..(slacker's class)
then get to get new ribbon shoes and non footed tights(what colour shall i get?) with lou after we go make her new specs.then at night get to see my darlings!!!yay!!

wonder how we're gonna find our way to that food place??

--Why Can't I Stop Liking You?--

BLAH

2006-04-18T19:22:00.000-07:00

I woke up this morning feeling reallly tired. not just in a physical sense, but emotionally as well.I think it's one of those drain days, where every single thought which enters my head eventually takes a negative path.eh. better not think anymore. argh. i totally have the blahs.

tl3:we must meet up sooonnn okies? don't be so stressed=)<3 you!

wini:don't worry, i'm sure everything will work out like it did before,=) soon you'll be too busy with new ppl alr=D..smile!!

-there is no life apart from God's love-

2006-04-17T23:30:00.000-07:00

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Rond de jambe?

2006-04-17T00:10:00.000-07:00

eee...i'm officially running out of time. Practise,practise,practise!!.

Chasse from fifth arms en avant(croise devant),lift to attitude .arabesque fourth,penchee,hooooold,lower and rond je jambe en dedans with arms demi bras, pirouette en dehors ending in fifth,right foot to degage 2nd,jete ordinaire.

=/...and then turns!! ahh!! triple?!...sobsob...omg.. i wanna slack for awhile...

thankful

2006-04-15T09:23:00.000-07:00

I’ll take off my shoes, I’m coming in,
Untie this rope, I’m staying with him,
Love of my life, I’ll live and die,
Just for the moments for my king and I.

Why did you call, why did you wait,
For someone so guilty, someone so fake.
There are no words for my beautiful song,
Now I’m in the arms of my beautiful one.

I’ll take off this crown and fall at your feet,
The secret of joy are the moments we meet.
How could a man with all of your fame,
Pull me from darkness and call me by name.

So hold me today, as I carry your cross,
Into the desert to find who is lost.
Look at my hands, they’re still full of faith,
God keep them clean till we finish the race.

-- Have YOU?--

=(

2006-04-13T08:19:00.000-07:00

I am disgusted by myself. just throughly and utterly disgusted. During a conversation earlier, the notion caught up with me, that what i was saying, could actually classify as snobbery.The act of thinking that oneself is superior to another for no good reason.yuck. how loathful. It just goes to show that the moment you stop watching, and stop making sure that you're keeping yourself grounded, other things can get in.better be vigilant.=/

nostalgia

2006-04-11T20:05:00.000-07:00

.In the process of channel surfing the radio on the way home earlier, i came across the opening strands of a familiar song. i'm fond of this song, not really because it's so cheerful or wadever , but mainly because of the fond memories it brings back. those times where would tease "friends" mercilessly because of their seeming affiliation wit this song, ,or just the whole group stopping in stores just to listen to the song=) . i think it's the feeling that i miss.

ACCIDENTALLY IN LOVE-COUNTING CROWS
So she said what's the problem baby
What's the problem I don't know
Well maybe I'm in love (love)
Think about it every time
I think about it
Can't stop thinking 'bout it
How much longer will it take to cure this
Just to cure it cause I can't ignore it if it's love (love)
Makes me wanna turn around and face me
but I don't know nothing 'bout love
Come on, come on
Turn a little faster
Come on, come on
The world will follow after
Come on, come on
Cause everybody's after love
So I said I'm a snowball running
Running down into the spring that's coming all this love
Melting under blue skies
Belting out sunlight
Shimmering love
Well baby I surrender
To the strawberry ice cream
Never ever end of all this love
Well I didn't mean to do it
But there's no escaping your love
These lines of lightning
Mean we're never alone,
Never alone, no, no
Come on, Come on
Move a little closer
Come on, Come on
I want to hear you whisper
Come on, Come on
Settle down inside my love
Come on, come on
Jump a little higher
Come on, come on
If you feel a little lighter
Come on, come on
We were once
Upon a time in love
We're accidentally in love
Accidentally in love (x7)
Accidentally I'm In Love,
I'm in Love, I'm in Love,
I'm in Love, I'm in Love,
I'm in Love,Accidentally (X 2)
Come on, come on
Spin a little tighter
Come on, come on And the world's a little brighter
Love ...I'm in love ...

-Let me know that you love me let that be enough-

thankful

2006-04-10T03:14:00.000-07:00

How often do we just sit still and think,reflect about what's happened so far?
hmm...not many,when you think about it.

--It's so easy to say that i don't care

but can i Mean it?--

2006-04-07T07:11:00.000-07:00

-I wonder what i'd do
without YOU-

I don't think i ever realised just how much we are responsible for our own actions and the direction which our lives take, or how much freedom there actually is in where we go and what we do with our lives..i think it's time to sit up and pay attention. and make my life go the way i want it to.

zzz

2006-01-08T01:26:00.000-08:00

some people are cowards. they don't dare to stand up to facts, or face truths and do what needs to be done. sad to say, i used to be one of them. constantly running from the inevitable.well. so sorry. no more. if you get in my face, jus get the heck back out.

2006-01-02T19:20:00.000-08:00

i am in a really high mood. mainly cause i've been acting relatively abnormal these few days..has anyone ever heard of getting high from actions?i used to think it only happened the other way.Whereby you do things because you're feeling high.oh well.guess you learn new things everyday.

xoxo*luv myself. bt sumtimes i wonder if im still sane*xoxo

2005-12-30T07:01:00.000-08:00

This is a very annoyned entry, so kindly skip it if you have sensitive eyes.
i just feel like ranting.

I AM SURROUNDED BY IDIOTS. Harsh. i know,but unfortunately true.
Firstly,can i say sumthing about family loyalty? Friends are versitile, unless you have super rare ones by yr side. You never know when their gonna turn on you, or just simply throw you out to the sharks.But family, those are the people whom you are supposed to be able to count on 100%, and 100% of the time. no matter how they may grate on your worn nerves ever so often, or how they may act in a manner which makes u wish u were an only child.As such, it sickens me when i see families turn against each other over something as material as money or possessions.Just as it irks me to no end when i hear family members bad-mouthing each other to outsiders, or even just keeping quiet and listening to others do the trash-talking. a passive involvement, is still an involvement.So pls, start to appreciate the famly you were put in, and do act like part of it.i'm sure yr there for a reason.

i am in such a bad mood right now..

i officially declare today quizday!

2005-12-29T20:00:00.000-08:00

I was bored today.. whole day clean,clean,clean,so i did some crappy quizzes.. haha. isn't this the ultimate boredom?

Your Nail Polish Color is Pink

How you're unique: You're girly without being high maintenance
Why your style rocks: You're the perfect blend of stylish, preppy, and cute
What this color says about you: "I am secure enough not to follow every trend"

What Color Nail Polish Best Fits You?

Your Hair Should Be Pink

Hyper, insane, and a boatload of fun.You're a traveling party that everyone loves to follow.

What's" Your Funky Inner Hair Color?

You Belong in Paris

Stylish and a little sassy, you were meant for Paris.The art, the fashion, the wine, the men!Whether you're enjoying the cafe life or a beautiful park...You'll love living in the most chic place on earth.

What City Do You Belong In?

You are a City Girl!

Whether you live in the city or not, you've got the heart of a city girl.You're up on the latest trends - what's hot in music, food, and fashion.And you love to be on the go. Your perfect day is filled with tons of fun.Your perfect guy is a city guy, so head to LA, NYC, Sydney, or London to find him!

What Kind of Girl Are You?

You're Part Diva

You know that a girl's gotta work it to get her way in the world.And while you aren't about to throw a tantrum at every turn...You do amp up the drama when you know you need it.You mix charm, honesty, and kindness to get ahead.

Are You a Diva?

Men See You As Understated

You are an intreguing mix of girl and woman.You're feminine, quiet, and a total mystery to most men.Yet they often feel the urge to protect you, even if they don't know you.You *are* a flirt, but you usually only flirt with those you know well

How Do Men See You?

TOLD YA IM A FLIRT:P

You Can Hang With the Guys and the Girls

You've struck a good balance between girlie and laid back.You can keep it casual but when you dress up, you are as girly as the next girl.

How Girlie Are You?

You Are a Normal Girl

You are 60% Good and 40% BadSure you've pulled some bad girl stunts in your past.But these days, you're (mostly) a good girl.

Are You a Good Girl or a Bad Girl?

You Are Boot Cut Jeans

You're fashionable and sexy - in an understated way.You're more about looking good than following the latest look of the week.

What Style of Jeans Are You?

You Are Fun Sexy

You're funny, quirky, cute, and sassy.Guys always have a great time with you, and that alone is sexy.You've got an upbeat, optimistic spirit that totally shines through.Any guy would be crazy to turn you down!

What Kind of Sexy Are You?

jus an ego trip i think;P

Your Flirt Quotient

You are 60% Flirt

How Much of a Flirt Are You?

told u!!told u!!:DDD

Your Element is Water

Your power colors: blue and aqua
Your energy: deep
Your season: winter
Like the ocean, you evoke deep feelings and passion.You have an emotional, sensitive, and spiritual soul.A bit mysterious, you tend to be quiet when you are working out a problem.You need your alone time, so that you can think and dream.

What Element Are You?

haha..issit??

You Are Strawberry Ice Cream

Sweet. Romanic. Genuine.

What Flavor Ice Cream Are You?

yummy!!

haha..quizzed out..

2006

2005-12-26T17:56:00.000-08:00

New year is coming!! haha. as usual. it's time to make some resolutions.

1)Learn to appreciate the people around me.
2)Get my priorities straight
3)Be prudent
4)REACH OUT MORE!!:DDD
5)be more cautious aka look before i leap.

2005 is almost over..time to grow up..the past two years have been fun but crazy. now it's time to get back to reality..

2005-12-26T17:33:00.000-08:00

THE BELOW ENTRY HAS RELEVANCE ONLY TO THOSE WHO KNOW WHAT I'M TALKING ABOUT.

I just had the most surreal conversation earlier.So, in accordance to that conversation, i'm going to brooch a subject which i normaly do NOT take much interest in approaching.
CLUBBING. i cannot begin to remember the number of times i have read about people's different opinions on this topic on their respective blogs.While some view clubbing as a harmless form of entertainment,others see it as a serious and vile crime.And there are yet others who go only because they want to be viewed as being "in" or "cool".Eveyone is entittled to their own personal opinion, but for the life of me, i cannot justify a person as having qualities which matter,eg.kindness,niceness,etc. just because they go clubbing.As such, i get annoyed when people try to defends other's actions by saying that they can't be that bad because their accepted at that level. where's the relevance???What a person wears or how he/she acts at a superficial level tells you absolutely nothing about their true colours.
jan,if your really willing to put a tried and true friendship in peril because of her then we have nothing more to say to you.
cory+sera

stomp.scream.shout.

2005-12-26T08:19:00.000-08:00

The dance project to day was whack,just whack. however, it was a boatloadful of fun, and as such, it was worth the dressing down which we got. =) the juniors are so cute! haha they just got some madmad idea into their heads that we shd use the themes of homosexuality and expressing purity in dance. complete and total conflict. haha. i wanna see how they do it, but tim swore he'd strangle them if they made him kiss antr guy. haha. like we really wanna see that.
I wanna get a new digicam. i realllyyrealllyyy do..hmmm...

So Bleah

2005-12-19T20:15:00.000-08:00

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December babies

2005-12-18T20:17:00.000-08:00

Birthday chart:
December 17th:Dad
December 17th:Minjia
December 18th:Qing
December 19th:Jerica
December 21th:T.K
December 24th:Joey
December 25th:JESUS!!:DDD

eh?

2005-12-15T19:13:00.001-08:00

i was looking through some of my friends bloggies..and there was this site from one of my ex-classie's blog.
it was frm the site:http://www.knowplace.org/men.html

the qns inside were slightly strange and the ans were a whole lot weird. but i was bored so i read.

somethink found inside:
Q:
Why can't men ever give a straight answer to a simple question?
A:
Frankly, your questions aren't all that simple. In general, when a woman asks a question, she has a correct answer in mind. We men are well aware of this. Therefore, it may take us a while to come up with the right answer. If a question is particularly tough, we may not answer at all.

earlier on this morining. i had 3 seperate conversations with 3 very different guys. i asked them all pretty much the same qns. and none save 1 could give me a straight ans. instead. they answered with qns of their own. so just check out the site if you want. it seems to be quite amusing:P

hehe. later going out to see mj!!!hehe..:DDD

2005-12-14T19:36:00.000-08:00

i think i've been quite a little piggy lately.. keep waking up so late..hehe..i want to look for a new blogskin.. something more..hmm..appropriate? yep.
3 people are coming back today.. surprisingly i think i missed them .. haha. so weird right?or i think i missed their crapiness. later tl3 read this le sure make alot of noise:X haha..i just went to see her bloggie. ahem! when did it become so... different?haha.. mus start paying more attention.. later kj steal her away ..hehe..hmmm..
shall i go for dance today? i'm such a slacker after O's. haha. maybe it's a delayed aftereffect.. but my ankle hurts:( probably too much walking yesterday. oh well.
oh ya. i hav a working phone again!! yay!!! i realised that i really use it alot..

this week we are having candle light svc=DDD
it's gonna be so much fun!!!=DDD
oh. and some friends are coming for svc:DDD
hmm... have to go get food now.. piggy-in-training you know..

better off

2005-12-14T07:08:00.000-08:00

boo!haha.. i'm a happier person now. it's a fact. why?
because i made a choice.after all. what's the point of listening to sermons if you don't even make an effort to internalise them and put them into effect?..i just had a relatively enlightening talk with louisa just now.. somehow, during the talk. i kept remembering the phrase"you must bring your heart in line with the Holy Spirit and God.

MOOD:*we will shine. shine like stars above. shining in your light.guided by your love. let your fire burn in us. burning like the sun. as we glorify. show your kingdom come to all the earth.*

whatever it is that draws you away from God cannot be a good thing.

fickleness??

2005-12-12T20:24:00.000-08:00

okay.it's an officially established fact. GUYS ARE COMPLICATED.bleah. they go around saying that girls are hard to understand..girls are fickle..girls are etc.etc.etc.. hehe. they should have a look at themselves first ..bleah...hmm.there's an ongoing debate about whether girls are more fickle than guys.. so weird?actually this sort of tink can't be decided in a sweeping statement..it's much more effective if decided on a one-to-one basis..hmmm..oh well..

MOOD:*just answer me if that's how you feel and let my heart begin to heal..how do i say i'm in love with you without hurting my pride and ego?what woud you say if i were to act bold and give you my heart wrapped up in my soul?*

Harsh Cold Unfeeling

2005-11-02T01:08:00.000-08:00

you people can think what you wish..say what you want.. if i can be so unaffected by everything you say, then it's obvious how much my regard for you has dropped...to not be a hypocrite...it's so terribly easy to say... which probably contributes to the cynical factor..who can really fulfill that? because let's face it.. diplomacy is a form of hypocracy as well.. isn't it?...life is fragile...true friends are rare... who can really tell what a person is thinking? what someone is doing behind your back? there are times when everyone questions if life is still worth living... no one is an exception.. but that would jus be running....if someones calls you a "friend"... do they really mean it? who can you really trust?i'm feeling harsh now.. so it's really a bit unfair to rant at people at this point of time..but we should never forget to count our blessings. but those people who i would rant about...oh well... fair play is a true occurance... if i've left where you are at.. with no semblence of friendship between us.. then it's alright to me...my intent is obvious... i suppose in the end.. all we can really do is lean on God, and trust him for the best....